Thursday, June 29, 2023

Insomnia


She hardly calls these days
And her absence
Is much appreciated
For when she does
I don't enjoy the outcome
And spend the next day
Feeling debilitated

Like a star-crossed lover
She knows my weak spots 
And uses them 
To force her way in 
Even though
I don't want her

Now I'm wide-eyed
Listening to crickets
And prayer calls from minarets
Fretting over tomorrow's decisions
And bridges
I haven't even encountered
Nor set foot upon yet

For the scars 
Of yesterday's bad outcomes
Are tiny chinks
In my emotional armour
She finds them, pushes
And in she comes
Taps on my hippocampus
Slips mental gears 
Into reverse
And digs up 
Buried images
Come tomorrow
I'll have to find 
Another cemetery
With side roads
Wide enough
To park this hearse

'Cos I'm not done diggin'
To inter
Yesterday's baggage
I still intend 
To travel light
And take my chances
Hoping my willpower
Hasn't suffered 
Lasting damage

The white towel


The clang was literally life-saving
And reverberated through 
Every hollow bone in his body
After successive intervals of intense body-beating
His legs could hardly bear any weight
Having turned to jelly
Four steps were all they could muster
Collapsing under him
As his trainer brought out the stool
And reached for the brow duster.

The cooling from the compresses 
Gradually spread to his aching muscles
Creeping upstream along venous tributaries
Until it arrived its destination
And he began to shiver

As the blood was mopped from his brow
And the underlying gash stapled
He cast a sidelong glance
At the white terrycloth
His trainer had left behind over there
In the darkness
Underneath the chairs
That made up the front row
A part of him longed to see it fly
Sail smoothly over the ropes
Into the incandescence
Land at the umpire's feet
And bring a halt 
To this nonsense
 
He kept staring at it though
For its shimmering in the dark
Evoked the memory of a story
His Nana loved to recount
Before he left for glory

Five kings had camped against a small city
"This was going to be a massacre
Not a battle"
One whispered to another
As they lay in their tents
The night before advancing
And right they were
For shrieks of terror 
Woke 'em up
While it was still dark
And the smell of burning flesh 
Caused them to choke
As they fled to a mountain cave
To watch the decimation
Of their troops in horror

However
As the day wore on
They grew less despondent
For even though 
They had been caught unawares
The enemy was outnumbered
"Nightfall would soon be upon us"
Said one to the others
Assuaging their fears
"For then we can count our losses
And plan our counterattack like bosses"

They soon discovered
The horror show wasn't over yet
Apparently the elements 
Had joined their foe to conspire
Against their haughty bet
It turned out to be
The longest recorded wait
For a sunset
And the sun's presence 
Was like a tonic to their adversaries
Who kept on fighting
Like they ran on alkaline batteries
Whispering under their breaths
Every few minutes
"The sun is still up"
Till all the kings' men
Had been killed or captured

The clang brought him back
To the present
He stole one last look
At the towel
Kicked up from the stool
And approached his adversary
"The sun is still up"
He muttered 
As he ducked and feinted